I want to show you that the lofty life can be achieved through a multitude of means all your own. I want to show you that the only thing one “should” do is to take full responsibility over what we want to experience. It’s not about just “putting it out into the universe”, it’s about taking control over everything you choose to think, feel, and put out there.
I want to show you that the bad habits and things we think we can’t change about ourselves can be changed in amazing ways. I want to show you that the lifestyle you think you need to have in order to feel good is very attainable. I want to show you how amazing it feels to feel free to fully express yourself, live in the moment, build a close relationship with yourself everyday and learn staggering resilience.
I want to show you that things can and will go wrong, and that they mean nothing about your ability as a human or an artist. I want to show you how getting to know how you operate and why is the best thing you can ever do for yourself, and I want you to experience that extra edge and freedom and strength it brings.
I want to show you how much you can overcome, how “too late” is only in your mind, and “it will never work–I’m not good enough” is just a thought we keep thinking. I want to prove that thriving is something anyone can do, with any bank account balance and any level in life.
I want to show that you can start from anywhere. I want to show you that contrasts and contradictions and imperfections are absolutely beautiful. I want to show you that the only voice you really really really need to listen to is your own, because this is your life and no one else can live it as truthfully or rightfully as you can.
But in order to to all that I must prove it to myself. I must fully practice all that I preach. I must experience and express that strong vulnerability, the freedom of being unafraid of being incomplete. I must express that although my life revolves around reading and pursuing self improvement, I am not a perfection-seeking, finger-pointing, purity-chasing wannabe guru who can only allow herself positivity and elation at all times.
I am a life monk because I am always the student. I am always the one trying to learn more, knowing that the point at which one thinks they know everything is the point that they have come to know nothing.
Thus this is where I show myself how to show you.