I’ve always felt like I’ve been seeking something that I couldn’t find, let alone define.
I know I’m not alone in this.
To lay away at night pondering mortality, purpose, happiness…life. To sit in highschool and zone out on the cover of my marble notebook, hoping that the vortex of blurred spots would reveal to me some big secret, like the hidden Magic Eye pictures.
I think the majority of frustrations stem from a world that glosses over of the stuff that really matters, collaging reality over with lists of societal responsibilities.
You don’t need a label. You’re a human being with incredible creative capability, whether you know it or not.
Just because there’s no church or group or school of thought that you currently feel at home in doesn’t mean that you’re on your own. It means that you’re in a major position to realize how much of a part of everything you really are.
We’re all seekers. We’re all seekers in our own ways, so what we’re searching for as individuals will always be slightly different. Some of us are at home right away, some of us jump from group to group, some drift along and never find anything that feels right. Others simply seek less, while some simply seek more.
But we are all seeking, on our own levels.
It isn’t our job to find and commit to a single group. It’s our job to seek out and find the individual parts that work best for ourselves. It’s a custom made purpose, a personally crafted spirituality. Our own unique lifestyle that is built just for us.
I used to think that because I didn’t have a group, I didn’t really have a kind of spirituality. But then I would sit and look at the stars at night and feel like I completely belonged in the biggest of schemes of things.
Just feel it. Feel it in the smallest things in everyday life. Feel it when you’re out alone in nature. Feel it when you’re staring at the sky in the middle of traffic.
We’re all feeling it, discreetly. We’re all experiencing, we’re all learning and living and existing.
I don’t know all the answers, or even any answers. But I know that I’m alive and living with you all right now.
This is where we create what we could never find. We’re all doing it differently, but we’re doing it together.
I now find it incredibly interesting and exciting to discover and learn what works best for different people. There is no right or wrong way if it makes you feel like your true self.
Don’t be afraid to seek above & beyond.